Friday, March 11, 2016

"The Lord will fight for you. You need only to be still." Exodus 14:14

I had another ultrasound yesterday and am so thankful to be able to say that our baby is still growing and has a normal heartbeat.  With a chronic placental abruption, we will likely face many ups and downs, but I am praising God for each additional day that He keeps this precious baby alive and growing.  Each day is a gift and a miracle, and I pray that God will continue to protect this little baby one painfully slow day at a time.  I have found so much peace in the verse above.  There is literally nothing I can do to help my precious little baby except be still.  Every bit of this situation is fully in God's hands, and I trust that He will fight for me.  On my own, this feels impossible, but I know that God will give me the strength I need to get through each day.  And that's truly all I need.  Yes, I would love to know the outcome of this pregnancy.  I ache to know whether or not I will get to hold my baby in my arms.  I would love to know how many ups and downs we will face or how much bleeding there will or won't be.  I would love to be able to say that the thought of five months of bed rest doesn't scare me at all.  But I don't know any of that.  What I do know, however, is that today my baby is still alive.  And I will rejoice in each new day that I get to claim that miracle.  

2 comments:

allison said...

Amen!

mary said...

You both have been so present in my thoughts- especially yesterday driving by the THS soccer fields! All the uncertainty is so excruciating, but I hope you're able to find some comfort in knowing you're never alone in this. That little fighter is already so very loved! xoxo